I don’t know how to ever be happy again. All I can see is bleakness and ruin. My life as I once knew it feels like it has been stolen from me. How do I get through this pain and humiliation? My soul aches. I’ve tried to compensate by putting on a happy face but I can’t keep it up. I’m not strong. I am a fragile person.
My imagination is reacting in incredible (Maybe credible?) ways. Betrayal is a terrible visitor. My recommendation avoid it at all costs. Hide from it. Keep it away.
Right now I feel so much fear and loneliness. I want to run away (as I am apt to do) but my heart won’t let me. How can I trust again when it was never my strong point in the first place? Which should take precedence self-preservation or faith?
Go with self preservation. Faith is sort of a blind man’s answer to problems. Actually, it’s more like the Christian’s answer to anything that defies explanation but is written in the bible. Trust your gut, trust the objective view and proceed from there.
If it seems too good to be true, it just might be. If it seems shady, it probably is. Rely on facts and objective analysis. Divorce yourself from your emotional reaction and assess things using a pro/con list if that’s what it takes. Just don’t wallow and don’t rely on an emotional backlash for the guidance you need to reach the right decision.
maybe this is silly to say in a comment but I hope that whatever you decide or action you take that it brings you some peace.
Take care xx
Thanks Bernie. I appreciate your comment and it isn’t silly it is kind of you to say.
I love you sis. Call if you need me. I can try to help you. x