I feel people are a subject I am great at reading. Everybody has their strengths and I think that is mine.

I am seldom surprised and mostly anticipatory of actions and their true purposes whether known to the individual or otherwise. Call me paranoid or whatever but I just know! =P

Maybe most actions or activities are unoriginal and therefore my knowing is nothing special, however it is knowing all the same. I am definitely not saying that this is a great thing. It is a terrible thing. To be taking in one thing, a piece of information from a conversation or a way of looking/acting and seeing it for what it really is in all its ugliness and true intent, that is a kind of transparency that can mess you up.

As you can see, quite obviously that I am the master of my own undoing and have continued to be so now for many a day. How do I just switch off? Do I need to? Should I just learn to ignore and accept? I feel this overwhelming need to protect myself first and foremost as if I realise just how fragile I can be. That can’t be a bad thing or can it? However, maybe, just maybe self-protection comes at a cost. The cost of which I will learn in time.